Claire needs to sleep. Ok, let me revise that. Claire NEEDS to sleep the whole night through. She can even wake up once before 10 - I'll deal. But lately she has been waking up, crying/screaming, throughout the night. By throughout the night, I mean at least 8 times. But who's counting?
I was wasting - I mean spending time blog surfing (not sure if that is even a real phrase), and I saw this video of a man who had about 8 puppies. They were all yapping & he began to sing, "Goodnight Sweetheart, well it's time to go . . ." You can finish singing the song, but the point is that these puppies actually calmed down & all went to sleep. Are you JOKING???? He can get 8 yelping puppies to quiet down in a cardboard box with the light on, and I cannot get Claire to sleep in her comfy crib with a dry pamper & clean jammies (insert sarcastic comment here).
I seriously do not think I have slept a solid night's sleep for more than 1 day in a row since the twins have been born. Boo hoo, waa waa. Yes, girls you are TOTALLY worth it. Mommy would do this ALL over again. But praise God I don't have to, and now I think I have a slight caffeine addiction. I LOVE my sleep, so this is a pretty big display of love. This is probably where I need to refresh myself on the fact that true love is sacrificial by nature. I've written about how being a mother means to sacrifice on many different levels for our children - sleep included. But, man is it HARD!
I really do NOT think that I would be able to endure motherhood, especially sleep deprived motherhood if I did not daily come to God to fill my needs. If I did not daily remember that He sacrificed His only Son, Jesus so that all that I do on this side of eternity is worth it. I wish this humbling moment could always sustain me at 3 a.m. when someone is awake. Sometimes it does & sometimes it is a true battle of the flesh, but I'm beginning to ramble. All's I know is that God has pledged to BE with me always, to strengthen me when I am weak, and to reward me for my pursuit of Him. I also know that so many people tell me how much they miss the baby phase & how quickly it passes. I'm not sure I'll miss this, but I have already seen how quickly it passes. So please say a prayer for Claire - that she sleeps the WHOLE night through - and so does her mommy - so that tomorrow they can spend some wonderful playtime together.
