To Be A Mother

I am learning to submit to motherhood.  Yes, I used the S word.  Submit.  I want you to know girls, when you are older & possibly mothers yourselves, that I made a conscience decision & effort to be a mother.  The word MOTHER involves a lot of definitions - biological, adoptive, spiritual - to name a few.  I have the privilege and joy of being your biological mother who has made a commitment to make you, my family, my priority.  I am choosing to invest in you, be consistent with you, train you in a Godly way, and basically submit to what it means to be a full complete mother.  I will fail you, I will have to apologize for mistakes, I will get annoyed, side-tracked, I will need a few time outs, I am NOT perfect & I will NOT try to be Super-Mom.  But I do commit to pray for you, and try to seek God's wisdom & discernment so that I can raise you in love & to the best of my ability.  It's gonna be hard - and take a long time - and I'll want to quit.  But I won't - you are worth it, daughters of the MOST HIGH.  You are worth it.  I write this now when you are 6,4,2,1,1 - and you may read this when you are 18 or more - and I hope you will feel encouraged, inspired, not alone.

I felt inspired to write this today, because we had a GREAT day.  And yesterday was a BAD day.  I am sure there will more of each.  One of the things we did today was paper mache.  We made a royal mess - and had a blast.  I sat down & did the project with you.  I didn't clean the house or just help or watch, but I participated.  It was wonderful.  I will try to participate more & smile as I clean up the mess - it was worth it - so worth it!

Love, mommy.